My heart is breaking today. This social distancing is so dang hard. I love people, I need people, I miss people.
I get why we are doing it and I am following the protocols hardcore, but it weighs on the soul ya know?!
Today we did a drive by visit with my parents. They stayed on their porch and we visited from the sidewalk. The girls sang some songs and showed Grammy and Grampy some tricks on their bikes.
We brought them joy. Pure and simple joy!
We didn’t embrace or get close and yet we still managed to smile and bring each other light.
I put on sunglasses cause my eyes kept watering. Having parents in their 70s is unsettling right now. Not being able to see them, visit with them and hug them is tough….not knowing when we will be able to embrace again is the worst…. but let me tell you when this is all said and done and hopefully behind us and buried deep, I will hold those two for hours on end, not letting go.
Time is precious and I woke up today feeling like I’m wasting so much time by not being able to see the people I care about. I feel like who knows how much time we have and why does it suck so bad that the next few months I might not even be able to have them over for dinner? I don’t want to waste one minute of time with them as they are my everything….
But you know what? I’m also theirs. They miss us as much as we miss them and they have it worse because they have just the two of them. No children wanting to play all day, no messy house with toys everywhere to clean up, no dirty dishes from 50 different snacks a day to wash and no cuddles and kisses from wee ones who still don’t really know the magnitude of this whole pandemic thing.
Compared to the elderly we have it easy. So, I shut down that stupid voice in my head and I decided that I will never take a simple handshake, a loud child’s birthday party or quiet dinner with friends for-granted ever again.
I will sing louder, hug tighter, dance like the whole world is watching and LOVE so HARD that my heart bursts like the Grinch!
It’s gonna be one hell of a party when we come out of this folks so buckle up, say what needs to be said, get rid of baggage that is meant for the past, embrace the future… cause when this social distancing is history, the party is going to be epic!
In your ‘Joy Journey’ this week I challenge you to think of one thing that you missed the most when the world was shut down… just one tiny, simple thing… and now make it a priority to do more of that. The things we missed the most are probably not dinners at fancy restaurants with friends, but rather simple face-to-face conversations with loved ones and long hugs… so do those things more… make them matter!
We’ve got this!
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